Y r they not seein the real tru meh?

Growing up mii twin sister n ii wer always da smallest kids. Ii was da oldest so ii thawt ii had 2 take care of us both. So ii became a tomboy. Ii figured no1 wud mess wyt a boy as much as dey wud a grl. Then ii became mean. Ii put on dys "get outta mii face cuz ion take no shyt" front. Ii did dyz 4 a big part of mii life. Ii hated bein lyk dat but dats wat ii thawt ii HAD 2do. Ii 1day decided ii was gonna stopd putn on da front n startd bein who ii realy was. Cuz it hurtd wen ppl ask us"how do ppl tell yhoo apart" n all ii hear frm other ppl is "oh she's more of a girly girl n she's more of a tomboy" or "she's da mean twin n dats da nice 1". It still hurts meh 2day wen ppl think of meh lyk dat. I've been thru so many thingz changin 2 who ii really am. N 4 ppl 2 think of meh as dat same girl realy hurts. It really does. Ppl dnt understand that that girl they thawt they Nu is gon. She's dead. Da real meh is here n dey dnt wanna accept dat. Its lyk dat TI n Justin timberlake song dead and gone. "oh I've been travel on this road to long tryna find my way back home the old me is dead and gone dead and gone!!!"What shud ii do?